My past keeps me lost

Verse One:
My past keeps me stuck bc even now all this time after, my past is what haunts me now.

The pain and trauma, was I not enough then to be enough now

The way it was as a child,
The innocence, the life with no worries, or maybe it was just a mask that was worn so no one could really see the hurt inside
Tell me, was that you too? Could we both be the same?

Chorus:
He is my calm to my storm, I never thought any one could slow my thoughts like he does, when I’m with him everything stops as if for a moment my head is free
Could it have been that we were meant to be? or was it us who just were not meant at all?
Every day we spent together was my best now every day I spent with out you is really hard to not fall.
So are you now my best or have I still lost my best?

Verse Two:
That day three years ago in march when I lost a part of us, I cringe at the next year and the next march to come because of that day three years ago when I lost a part of us, no year after will ever be the same.
Swiftly flow the days
The calm winds and bright sun
Does it seem like yesterday was when we begun.

Chorus
He is my calm to my storm, I never thought any one could slow my thoughts like he does, when I’m with him everything stops as if for a moment my head is free
He is my calm to my storm, I never thought any one could slow my thoughts like he does, when I’m with him everything stops as if for a moment my head is free
Could it have been that we were meant to be? or was it us who just were not meant at all?
Every day we spent together was my best now every day I have spent with out you is really hard not fall.
So are you now my best or have I still lost my best?
So deny, so I lie just not to cry…